Sunday, June 22, 2008


It so hard to believe that it's been 2 years since we were Logged In to China. So much has changed in our lives, so much has happened to us and to our family. I sometimes question why our Journey to C has been so long, so hard but also such a sweet reminder that adoption is not for the faint of heart.

There are still questions that linger, like was the adoption agency really telling the truth about my paperwork? Especially since they lied about it being sent to China for over 5 1/2 months before it actually was. Did my paperwork really make it through the review room with no problems? Or did the fail to notify me? But over a year ago, I went to my favorite spot to pray, no it's not inside a church, its just a place that I have went over the years where I feel closer to God, I have went there whenever I needed God guidance or needed a serene place to think. So I stood there looking across the beauty of nature that was before me and I dropped to my knees and said God, if C's adoption is not going to happen then please crush my heart now into a billion pieces, otherwise please give me peace which I have not felt about C's adoption since I signed with my agency so I can make it through this wait without a constant doubt. And it was quite amazing but I felt a warm breeze blow over me and felt peace. I know that C's adoption will happen, even with all the people around me still very worried about the lies we have been told by our agency and their doubting it will every happen. But I know in my heart that C will come home, it maybe years from now but eventually I will be sitting by my phone and get the call and there will be the most precious baby girl that I have been waiting so very long for.


Farrah said...

WOW Heather that was so sweet.. She will come home one day, I won't say soon, But I will say she will be there in your arms and all this will fade!!!

Shelby said...

When the time finally arrives she will be just the right one for you.